https://mandymerzaban.com Mandy Merzaban Tue, 29 Sep 2026 11:43:59 +0000 https://mandymerzaban.com en https://mandymerzaban.com/about-1 Thu, 18 Apr 2024 19:49:59 +0000 Mandy Merzaban https://mandymerzaban.com/about-1 <img width="1334" height="1624" width_o="1334" height_o="1624" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/7698c5dbd6c476e40872ff5d196cff817a5eb04efe8100887f8ebf3179566c5a/IMG_7634.JPG" data-mid="228100415" border="0" data-scale="46" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/7698c5dbd6c476e40872ff5d196cff817a5eb04efe8100887f8ebf3179566c5a/IMG_7634.JPG" />︎︎ cv︎ writing &amp; commission queries: mandysmerzaban@gmail.com︎ currently offline bio I am a Turtle Island-born Egyptian artist and writer with a multimedia poetry practice based in London. I was born on Treaty 6 territory, the traditional lands of the Cree, Saulteaux, Nakoda, and Dakota peoples and the homeland of the Métis. ︎ In 2026, an exhibition of my multimedia poetry project Fake Love &amp; Institutional Longing (BTS)&nbsp; is at John Hansard Gallery at the University of Southampton from 28 April - 5 September. It considers how Orientalism, the West’s destructive imaginary of the ‘East’, changes form over time: from masking itself in contemporary culture and institutions within neoliberalism to love and longing within diasporic experience. The project unravels within the magnetic aura and altar of K‑pop, choreography, and sonic artifacts, using BTS’s (방탄소년단) Fake Love (2018) as a kinetic cypher for the project’s poems and archival research. Alongside Amrita Dhallu, we hosted&nbsp;(BTS) Fake Love Poetry Workshop and in conversation.As part of Jack Ky Tan’s Makan Makan lunch banquet, the performative culmination of his artist residency at Camden Arts Centre, Caught in the Middle, I presented a series of new poems (menu of poetic starters) in response to his research on the Asian colonial middle. &nbsp;︎ In 2025, I published my first pamphlet of poetry a heart gills with Short Pieces That Move in Rotterdam and was the poet-in-residence at John Hansard Gallery, organised by artist and guest curator&nbsp;Jack Ky Tan. My poetry residency project Fake Love &amp; Institutional Longing (BTS) considers poetry, phenomenology, choreography and colonialism within K-pop, Orientalism and colonial archives with primary research at Royal Asiatic Society. ︎ In 2024 I was part of CVAN London’s co-learning collective the&nbsp;Writers’ Room,&nbsp;led by artist Jack Ky Tan this was a nine month writing programme for organisations wanting to evaluate the institutional language they use and to create new vocabularies of equity and care, culminating in the publication Policy for Policy designed by Rose Nordin. In relation to this I responded to the AREVA report on anti-racism in the arts with Do let us, destroy the pyramid. In collaboration with Mosaic Rooms and artists yasamin and sass, I led bad comms poetry, a poetry workshop at the Feminist Library about deconstructing emails, legalese and statements we consider bad communications to make word banks and poetry. As part of The Archive as a Gathering Place programme at Tate curated by Vasundhara Mathur, I co-led a focus group on archives and social movements.&nbsp; ︎ In 2022, I was a Brooks International Fellow at Tate’s Research and Interpretation department and was a resident at Delfina Foundation, conducting research on anti-racist policy, thinking, and communication within workplace culture. My research considered the emotional architectures of institutional life through conversation, poetry, photography, and artistic intervention. This culminated into a presentation on institutional poetics: a lexicon of counter-productivity at Peer Gallery in 2023.&nbsp; ︎ From 2009 to 2018, as the founding curator at the Barjeel Art Foundation, I organised over twenty international exhibitions showcasing underrepresented SWANA region and diaspora artists, with venues including Yale University Art Gallery, Singapore Art Museum, and Tehran Museum of Contemporary Art, among others.&nbsp; ︎ I studied in the department of History, Theory, and Criticism in the Aga Khan Programme for Islamic Architecture at Massachusetts Institute of Technology (MIT) in 2021 and Cultural Translation at American University of Paris in 2015.&nbsp; https://mandymerzaban.com/Services Mon, 24 Aug 2026 15:49:18 +0000 Mandy Merzaban https://mandymerzaban.com/Services SERVICES /&nbsp; I offer writing, research, and facilitation services for artists, institutions, and cultural organisations across editorial, workshops and project consultancy on a sliding scale. I have worked with institutions and individuals on texts, research, transnational curatorial projects and workshop facilitation that include Tate Britain, Tate Modern,&nbsp;Peer Gallery, Massachusetts Institute of Technology, John Hansard Gallery, PageMasters, CVAN London, Gasworks, Delfina Foundation, Whitechapel Gallery, Singapore Art Museum, Yale University Art Gallery, Sharjah Art Museum, Tehran Museum of Contemporary Art, Institut du Monde Arabe and others. Writing &amp; Editorial Statements, Releases &amp; Bios I work with you to articulate your practice or message in a clear and accessible voice with precise vocabulary. Catalogue Essays &amp; Critical Writing/Reporting Research-based essays for exhibitions, publications, reports or institutional projects. Creative Copy Editing &amp; Proofreading Editing with an eye for subtleties of language, culture and tone. These include releases, statements, publications and proposals. Releases &amp; Marketing Copy Copy for exhibitions, comms, events, reports. <img width="2935" height="1697" width_o="2935" height_o="1697" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/7e99b9db52958aa21627bbbf168720f2b26e42c5784cf0401123620a29f1f58d/Screenshot-2026-08-24-at-17.53.04.png" data-mid="251532757" border="0" data-scale="81" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/7e99b9db52958aa21627bbbf168720f2b26e42c5784cf0401123620a29f1f58d/Screenshot-2026-08-24-at-17.53.04.png" /> <img width="2918" height="1689" width_o="2918" height_o="1689" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/3ddae919fbc02bfc7ad947350ad188fc0f3e28dfe6fd7745a059ffc75d0158a4/Screenshot-2026-08-24-at-17.53.59.png" data-mid="251532759" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/3ddae919fbc02bfc7ad947350ad188fc0f3e28dfe6fd7745a059ffc75d0158a4/Screenshot-2026-08-24-at-17.53.59.png" /> Brooks International Fellowship: Tate Research &amp; Interpretation, 2022 Research &amp; Consultancy Project Consultancy Consulting on project development, language sensitivity, programming and creative comms strategy. Residency Studio Visits 1:1 mentorship, critique and idea generation. Language &amp; Creative Collaboration Consulting on projects requiring attention to language, poetic form, or cultural translation. <img width="2806" height="3975" width_o="2806" height_o="3975" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/39f00893db33676a8b16a1c6b69a144deadd52b7f40b1fbf9226c099483c8278/IMG_2131.jpg" data-mid="251532395" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/39f00893db33676a8b16a1c6b69a144deadd52b7f40b1fbf9226c099483c8278/IMG_2131.jpg" /> <img width="3969" height="2804" width_o="3969" height_o="2804" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/81a0c83bef8911a00a66236efe50401edd8e683b0400a69a6ef9ca4954832bc5/IMG_1959.jpg" data-mid="251532412" border="0" data-scale="83" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/81a0c83bef8911a00a66236efe50401edd8e683b0400a69a6ef9ca4954832bc5/IMG_1959.jpg" /> Cyanotype workshop, PageMasters Zine Fair 2025 Facilitation, Teaching &amp; Workshops Poetry Workshops Tailored experimental workshops for artists, youth, and community groups. Cyanotype Workshops Cyanotype making workshops from introductory chemical process to printmaking. Rates I often work on a day rate basis, with flexibility depending on the project scale, funding, time commitment and context. Day Rate Scale Who it applies to £350-450 Larger institutions, universities, commercial galleries £250-300 Non-profits, arts charities, community organisations £150–£200 Individual artists, early-career practitioners, freelancers Get in Touch I am open to commissions, collaborations, and consultancy projects with longer term, more dynamic parameters. If you are not sure which fits your needs, I am happy to have a chat!E: mandysmerzaban@gmail.com https://mandymerzaban.com/Palestine-Solidarity-Posters Thu, 18 Apr 2024 20:29:42 +0000 Mandy Merzaban https://mandymerzaban.com/Palestine-Solidarity-Posters PALESTINE SOLIDARITY&nbsp; RISOGRAPH PROTEST POSTERS GAZA FUNDRAISER <img width="810" height="1231" width_o="810" height_o="1231" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/5b11b1219bc386177a613c8a862075426be05f597b6b3a62351bff24e7fcaf9d/IMG_7367.PNG" data-mid="209980255" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/810/i/5b11b1219bc386177a613c8a862075426be05f597b6b3a62351bff24e7fcaf9d/IMG_7367.PNG" /> <img width="4032" height="3024" width_o="4032" height_o="3024" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/6cb430fa40407428ae5fa008adac59c36f7ab648be7f23b59082b487b6c503dc/Group-posters.jpg" data-mid="211118401" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/6cb430fa40407428ae5fa008adac59c36f7ab648be7f23b59082b487b6c503dc/Group-posters.jpg" /> <img width="2573" height="3669" width_o="2573" height_o="3669" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/7e7ed9cf64e14aaba779e1e3605cd92b95f410016b84d3d1bcffda56943e82a8/IMG_7627.jpeg" data-mid="235892842" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/7e7ed9cf64e14aaba779e1e3605cd92b95f410016b84d3d1bcffda56943e82a8/IMG_7627.jpeg" /> <img width="2694" height="3815" width_o="2694" height_o="3815" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/25c59b6ae564aa7c8d74ae12f81af481d3dd97414f13635aad1dd66fd1479984/IMG_4026.jpg" data-mid="229565277" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/25c59b6ae564aa7c8d74ae12f81af481d3dd97414f13635aad1dd66fd1479984/IMG_4026.jpg" /> <img width="2707" height="3841" width_o="2707" height_o="3841" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/249f8b7d0a4349db3d83183138515dc0fd7568d9092ddbc2786d52f28c46aa81/IMG_4025.jpg" data-mid="229565276" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/249f8b7d0a4349db3d83183138515dc0fd7568d9092ddbc2786d52f28c46aa81/IMG_4025.jpg" /> In generous collaboration with PageMasters the first set of my series of original cyanotype Palestine solidarity protest posters are now available as colourful Risograph prints.&nbsp; There are fifty editions of each that you can use at Palestine solidarity protests or as daily reminders that Palestinian liberation is our moral compass in resisting imperialism. Solidarity, activism, collective resistance and direct action in this moment is urgent and necessary and we must resist the normalisation of racist, state oppression as it implicates us all, otherwise what are we here for? FUNDRAISER I am raising funds for a fundraiser to support the Abu Samra family in Gaza who face unimaginable danger, devastation, denied limited or no access to basic needs every day in this genocide. As this is a fundraiser, kindly consider donating to the GoFundMe directly in addition to this poster sale if you are in the financial position to do so. *All proceeds from this poster sale will go to the fundraiser will be transferred directly to the family* PRICE Each print is £&nbsp;20 plus packaging and postage (within UK £4.50). Please get in touch with me (mandysmerzaban@gmail.com) if you would like one but are not within the UK or if you face any issues with ordering. I will be adding International postage options at check out upon specific email requests from those interested in purchasing. I have also added an option ‘︎Artist Support and Production costs’ below to help me to continue to produce these posters and new ones as I am paying out of pocket for all materials and production. Any small contribution will be deeply appreciated.︎ Remember, it’s ‘Free Palestine’ until Palestine is free, from the river to the sea.&nbsp; POSTERS <img width="2573" height="3669" width_o="2573" height_o="3669" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/7e7ed9cf64e14aaba779e1e3605cd92b95f410016b84d3d1bcffda56943e82a8/IMG_7627.jpeg" data-mid="235892842" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/7e7ed9cf64e14aaba779e1e3605cd92b95f410016b84d3d1bcffda56943e82a8/IMG_7627.jpeg" /> NEW: Whirling for a Free Palestine Size: 42 x 29.7cm (A3)Risograph: Black, single sided, printed on Munken Pure 240 gsm Silver ink ︎Artist Support and Production costs Kindly consider supporting me to continue to make work and buy materials with a £5 donation or more. <img width="2707" height="3841" width_o="2707" height_o="3841" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/249f8b7d0a4349db3d83183138515dc0fd7568d9092ddbc2786d52f28c46aa81/IMG_4025.jpg" data-mid="229565276" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/249f8b7d0a4349db3d83183138515dc0fd7568d9092ddbc2786d52f28c46aa81/IMG_4025.jpg" /> NEW: Love is Resistance is Solidarity is Hope Size: 42 x 29.7cm (A3)Risograph: Violet, single sided, printed on Munken Pure 240 gsm ︎Artist Support and Production costs Kindly consider supporting me to continue to make work and buy materials with a £5 donation or more. <img width="2694" height="3815" width_o="2694" height_o="3815" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/25c59b6ae564aa7c8d74ae12f81af481d3dd97414f13635aad1dd66fd1479984/IMG_4026.jpg" data-mid="229565277" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/25c59b6ae564aa7c8d74ae12f81af481d3dd97414f13635aad1dd66fd1479984/IMG_4026.jpg" /> NEW:&nbsp;Imperialism is Terrorism as Nationalism Size: 42 x 29.7cm (A3)Risograph: Copper, single sided, printed on Munken Pure 240 gsm ︎Artist Support and Production costs Kindly consider supporting me to continue to make work and buy materials with a £5 donation or more. <img width="2630" height="3691" width_o="2630" height_o="3691" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/ab0d691048b40b999a0267ff720aa64b40f8163f1714d5a19ea4e632c6415d8d/IMG_7727-2.JPG" data-mid="229565529" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/ab0d691048b40b999a0267ff720aa64b40f8163f1714d5a19ea4e632c6415d8d/IMG_7727-2.JPG" /> Fuck Your Orientalist Racist Capitalist POV Size: 42 x 29.7cm (A3)Risograph: Warm&nbsp;Red, single sided, printed on Munken Pure 240 gsm ︎Artist Support and Production costs Kindly consider supporting me to continue to make work and buy materials with a £5 donation or more. <img width="2558" height="3628" width_o="2558" height_o="3628" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/4d0a292dd5520ecd7839650afc9d9bb98ae31ea32ab06bea446cb187ed634f27/IMG_7725-2.JPG" data-mid="229565528" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/4d0a292dd5520ecd7839650afc9d9bb98ae31ea32ab06bea446cb187ed634f27/IMG_7725-2.JPG" /> In the Cracks of Our Broken Hearts We Hold a Free Palestine&nbsp; Size: 42 x 29.7cm (A3)Risograph: Light Teal, single sided, printed on Munken Pure 240 gsm ︎Artist Support and Production costs Kindly consider supporting me to continue to make work and buy materials with a £5 donation or more. <img width="2539" height="3650" width_o="2539" height_o="3650" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/c8258718c6c73ab4788d0df040f2b43bf1b3a8cf606bded7eaeb5c10d892684c/IMG_7292-3.JPG" data-mid="229565527" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/c8258718c6c73ab4788d0df040f2b43bf1b3a8cf606bded7eaeb5c10d892684c/IMG_7292-3.JPG" /> Apathy Pays for Genocide Size: 42 x 29.7cm (A3)Risograph: Green, single sided, printed on Munken Pure 240 gsm ︎Artist Support and Production costs Kindly consider supporting me to continue to make work and buy materials with a £5 donation or more. <img width="2556" height="3647" width_o="2556" height_o="3647" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/f441ac99d82eee3ecad2d9018ad1bf4b8cd652cdafbfdcb989b0638c54eefe64/IMG_7728-2.JPG" data-mid="229565530" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/f441ac99d82eee3ecad2d9018ad1bf4b8cd652cdafbfdcb989b0638c54eefe64/IMG_7728-2.JPG" /> Silence and ‘Neutrality’ on Genocide is Colonial Self-Care Size: 42 x 29.7cm (A3)Risograph: Black, single sided, printed on Munken Pure 240 gsm ︎Artist Support and Production costs Kindly consider supporting me to continue to make work and buy materials with a £5 donation or more. https://mandymerzaban.com/Fake-Love-Institutional-Longing Tue, 11 Nov 2025 10:22:22 +0000 Mandy Merzaban https://mandymerzaban.com/Fake-Love-Institutional-Longing / FAKE LOVE &amp; INSTITUTIONAL LONGING (BTS) <img width="9561" height="6374" width_o="9561" height_o="6374" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/9dc01c50f6e35301e0a7379e594e18aecc81819f5ccd178bf2b285060ee0b62e/10.06.26_Mandy-Merzaban---Fake-Love-and-Institutional-Longing_HR_014.jpg" data-mid="250835073" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/9dc01c50f6e35301e0a7379e594e18aecc81819f5ccd178bf2b285060ee0b62e/10.06.26_Mandy-Merzaban---Fake-Love-and-Institutional-Longing_HR_014.jpg" /> <img width="9504" height="6336" width_o="9504" height_o="6336" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/c3d72b69276f559e7f564b6c040feff77c0d77440521d2e47f174cd534d17b44/10.06.26_Mandy-Merzaban---Fake-Love-and-Institutional-Longing_HR_006.jpg" data-mid="250835074" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/c3d72b69276f559e7f564b6c040feff77c0d77440521d2e47f174cd534d17b44/10.06.26_Mandy-Merzaban---Fake-Love-and-Institutional-Longing_HR_006.jpg" /> <img width="4912" height="3275" width_o="4912" height_o="3275" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/180e6ec37b39b348a8f5a7e2b585b07f5eba4d7198818bb3564085649fc69a70/JHG_Fake_Love__Institutional_Longing-1.jpg" data-mid="250835041" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/180e6ec37b39b348a8f5a7e2b585b07f5eba4d7198818bb3564085649fc69a70/JHG_Fake_Love__Institutional_Longing-1.jpg" /> <img width="1000" height="1406" width_o="1000" height_o="1406" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/302ce62efc6397d02567cc3d18b17b6b775d2bef38388c780207d29bc5e51c2e/small_BST_Flower_Raffles_tomb-stone-copy.png" data-mid="247599552" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/302ce62efc6397d02567cc3d18b17b6b775d2bef38388c780207d29bc5e51c2e/small_BST_Flower_Raffles_tomb-stone-copy.png" /> <img width="9230" height="6154" width_o="9230" height_o="6154" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/d6b1b9692e1c205e498828f5650f538f63da445c17e36f1c14163dbc526fad4d/10.06.26_Mandy-Merzaban---Fake-Love-and-Institutional-Longing_HR_011.jpg" data-mid="250835077" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/d6b1b9692e1c205e498828f5650f538f63da445c17e36f1c14163dbc526fad4d/10.06.26_Mandy-Merzaban---Fake-Love-and-Institutional-Longing_HR_011.jpg" /> <img width="8744" height="5829" width_o="8744" height_o="5829" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/53d58b467bed20735d41556dca6a0bf148ee8e05d7a268a1a6377a5ac2063a66/10.06.26_Mandy-Merzaban---Fake-Love-and-Institutional-Longing_HR_012.jpg" data-mid="250835078" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/53d58b467bed20735d41556dca6a0bf148ee8e05d7a268a1a6377a5ac2063a66/10.06.26_Mandy-Merzaban---Fake-Love-and-Institutional-Longing_HR_012.jpg" /> <img width="9112" height="6074" width_o="9112" height_o="6074" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/0d23c93cf08167f3fcdf7d71c6ac2007e9984a9c1e699915a230ddc9e8f6360e/10.06.26_Mandy-Merzaban---Fake-Love-and-Institutional-Longing_HR_018.jpg" data-mid="250835080" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/0d23c93cf08167f3fcdf7d71c6ac2007e9984a9c1e699915a230ddc9e8f6360e/10.06.26_Mandy-Merzaban---Fake-Love-and-Institutional-Longing_HR_018.jpg" /> <img width="9385" height="6257" width_o="9385" height_o="6257" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/af058dd2a572972f6bae5d7ef81c24e565d213721a7b3c6cfe3d1f5dbd2d642d/10.06.26_Mandy-Merzaban---Fake-Love-and-Institutional-Longing_HR_005.jpg" data-mid="250835076" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/af058dd2a572972f6bae5d7ef81c24e565d213721a7b3c6cfe3d1f5dbd2d642d/10.06.26_Mandy-Merzaban---Fake-Love-and-Institutional-Longing_HR_005.jpg" /> Fake Love &amp; Institutional Longing (BTS) (2025-) is a multimedia poetry project about how Orientalism, the West’s destructive imaginary of the ‘East’ changes form across centuries. Orientalism masks itself across forms, from contemporary popular culture, museums, to love and longing within diasporic experience. The project begins in the Royal Asiatic Society archive in London, a colonial‑era institution of imperial knowledge‑extraction across East, South, Southeast, and West Asia. It threads documents of Orientalist discourse, fetish and colonial bureaucracy from 18th century to K-pop fancams and fandoms. The project centres on a multi‑lingual banquet menu from the 1889 International Congress of Orientalists in Stockholm, where poems about European cuisines are written in languages of so-called ‘Orient’ from Chinese, Arabic, Javanese, to Egyptian Hieroglyphs and more. This iteration uses BTS’s hit song ‘Fake Love’ (2018) and ‘Blood, Sweat &amp; Tears’ (2016) as kinetic cyphers and sonic companions of cultural analysis. ︎Listen here︎to a series of poetic episodes on the project. The installation features vinyl, cyanotype prints with video-essay style poems that oscillate between a voice note-like correspondence to an unknown lover, and archival analysis, as well as two songs (깊은 가면) DEEP FAKE LOVE and 피, 땀, 이론 (BLOOD SWEAT THEORY) by musician Tzekin (Justin Tam) that heavily re-process the vocal stems from K-pop tracks written and musically generated from the project's poetics.John Hansard Gallery 28 April - 5 September 2026 <img width="2000" height="1498" width_o="2000" height_o="1498" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/af88774f6909051c75f83d115b1c6fdeee13a93fe5d95f7f4a2b81ee2b7bc9f2/02_Archivist_Bust_Menu-copy-2.png" data-mid="240494274" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/af88774f6909051c75f83d115b1c6fdeee13a93fe5d95f7f4a2b81ee2b7bc9f2/02_Archivist_Bust_Menu-copy-2.png" /> <img width="9385" height="6257" width_o="9385" height_o="6257" 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The episodes alternate between a longing correspondence between the narrator to an unknown lover and analysis of colonial documents. Loosely drawing its form from the frame story of 1001 (Arabian) Nights, where narrator Scheherazade shares an unending series of tales to Persian King Shahriyâr to defer execution, the episodes consider the ways in which orientalism shapeshifts and manifests in contemporary neoliberal cultural institutions, and the manufacturing of desire from an 19th century banquet menu to K-pop. Key archival items include the banquet menu, Sir Stamford Raffles’ gravestone, kept in RAS storage, a donated lithograph of a corpse flower (rafflesia arnoldii) he ‘discovered’ with Joseph Arnold, and a letter from Jiaqing Emperor to George IV. (Full audio episodes on&nbsp;Sound Cloud). 00 perennial metronome (6:53 min) 01 Aladdin is set in China (5:04 min) 03 Vitrine Fever (7:19 min) 05 Soup in Chinese &amp; Salad in Akkadian (4:20 min) https://mandymerzaban.com/DEEP-FAKE-LOVE-BLOOD-SWEAT-THEORY-2026-Page Tue, 29 Sep 2026 11:43:59 +0000 Mandy Merzaban https://mandymerzaban.com/DEEP-FAKE-LOVE-BLOOD-SWEAT-THEORY-2026-Page (깊은 가면) DEEP FAKE LOVE / 피, 땀, 이론 (BLOOD SWEAT THEORY) <img width="7956" height="5304" width_o="7956" height_o="5304" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/d929f0ef699c26fc92784556f1caa09edb707f644701d0b309e120f588ec6304/10.06.26_Mandy-Merzaban---Fake-Love-and-Institutional-Longing_HR_015.jpg" data-mid="252718805" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/d929f0ef699c26fc92784556f1caa09edb707f644701d0b309e120f588ec6304/10.06.26_Mandy-Merzaban---Fake-Love-and-Institutional-Longing_HR_015.jpg" /> <img width="1064" height="739" width_o="1064" height_o="739" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/de475dc2bea43502eb0866de9f1b43f8a8ad8367afd130cedcc6af792d29401a/Archive-14.jpeg" data-mid="252719036" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/de475dc2bea43502eb0866de9f1b43f8a8ad8367afd130cedcc6af792d29401a/Archive-14.jpeg" /> <img width="1640" height="2360" width_o="1640" height_o="2360" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/4bc853761a4f06de22eb7d2f3fc65eca0750995d12d7bc42d107ec7cd17a079b/IMG_3863.PNG" data-mid="252719042" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/4bc853761a4f06de22eb7d2f3fc65eca0750995d12d7bc42d107ec7cd17a079b/IMG_3863.PNG" /> <img width="3024" height="1964" width_o="3024" height_o="1964" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/309bef607a6da81efff192e078b27609a7c618f3a6f01ceb333eb355507a9c14/IMG_6461.PNG" data-mid="252719414" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/309bef607a6da81efff192e078b27609a7c618f3a6f01ceb333eb355507a9c14/IMG_6461.PNG" /> <img width="828" height="1792" width_o="828" height_o="1792" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/36a0c865036be5bf1197d8f3e0ede6840f4b6ddcc767091375e0aad30b98e302/IMG_8505.PNG" data-mid="252719412" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/828/i/36a0c865036be5bf1197d8f3e0ede6840f4b6ddcc767091375e0aad30b98e302/IMG_8505.PNG" /> <img width="828" height="1792" width_o="828" height_o="1792" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/ea8a410a043f5d9fec37708a445d64fbab126fb2990cedadfbe72595eb68a619/IMG_8659.PNG" data-mid="252719413" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/828/i/ea8a410a043f5d9fec37708a445d64fbab126fb2990cedadfbe72595eb68a619/IMG_8659.PNG" /> Drawn from the&nbsp;Fake Love... project’s poetics and themes on neoliberal arts institutions and artistic labour, two songs were AI generated as K-pop inspired boyband scores for the exhibition. With lyrics refined in collaboration with Chinese AI language model DeepSeek to fit pop song templates, two tracks (깊은 가면) DEEP FAKE LOVE and &nbsp;피 땀 이론 (BLOOD SWEAT THEORY) were created.&nbsp; Musician Tzekin (Justin Tam) then heavily re-processed the vocal stems, fraying the standardised soundsapes into echoing anthemic-like incantations into an ether of fanchants and cheers. &nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp; Listen: ︎(깊은 가면) DEEP FAKE LOVE ︎ 피 땀 이론 (BLOOD SWEAT THEORY) _______________________ Lyrics:&nbsp; (깊은 가면) DEEP FAKE LOVE Gilded halls, they promised me the truth A curated world for my believing youth Your neoliberal stare, so cold and sure I fell so hard for your ‘theoretical’ cure 나만을 위한 대본인 줄 알았어 (I thought this script was written just for me) A new order, made from stolen land 이제 너의 모든 스텝을 배워, 강제된 춤을 (I'm learning all your steps, this conscripted dance) A patron's fever trance Your smile is policy, your words, a trap I see the ghost behind the map 뼛속까지 느껴져, 다 가짜란 걸 I feel it in my bones, it's all fake 내 모습은 사라져 가 (My reflection is fading) I'm so sorry, it's a Deep Fake Love I quote a theory where a heart should be! I quote a theory where a heart should be! To hide the horror of the things I see 깊은 가면 (Deep Mask) 다 가짜야 (It's all fake) Yeah, I'm so sorry, it's a Deep Fake Love I speak your language now I know your curator's game You pull my strings to press release my rage You think you're different but you're just the same Your palace is built on what was never meant My radical demand is now your interior design 니가 원한 평화는 나의 복종 (The peace you want is my submission) 벽에 걸린 분노 (My anger, hung on the wall) I'm tired of living in this white cube you call 'brave' I get empty plates for the love I gave In this hall of mirrors I've become the smoke This deep fake love is a ghost in my throat 뼛속까지 느껴져, 다 가짜란 걸 I feel it in my colonised bones, it's all fake 더는 안 돼, 이 미친 놀이 (I can't do it, this insane game) I'm so sorry, it's a Deep Fake Love I quote a theory where a heart should be! I quote a theory where a heart should be! To hide the horror of the things I see 깊은 가면 (Deep Mask) 다 가짜야 (It's all fake) Yeah, I'm so sorry, it's a Deep Fake Love You believe a lie that should eat you alive That’s why we won't survive I'm pulling my plug, I’ll steal the key 진짜인 너였으면, 진짜인 나였으면 (I wish you were real, I wish I was real) Yeah, I'm so sorry, it's a Deep Fake (Me!) I'M SO SORRY, IT'S A DEEP FAKE LOVE! I QUOTE A THEORY WHERE A HEART SHOULD BE! I QUOTE A THEORY WHERE A HEART SHOULD BE! 깊은 가면 (DEEP MASK!) (다 가짜야!) (IT'S ALL FAKE!) YEAH, I'M SO SORRY, IT'S A DEEP FAKE LOVE! I quit a theory where a heart should be. ...anymore. 다 태워버려 (...let’s burn it all down.) 팔레스타인에 자유를 Free Falasteen, Mother Fuckers. ____________________________ 피 땀 이론 (BLOOD SWEAT THEORY) Kitab, Ikra! Blood, Sweat and Dust! Hypnotic Moombah/Trap, sensual and dark Thematic Parallel: Both songs explore a dangerous, almost sinful attraction. Where BTS sings of a tempting love that feels like a sin, this track sings of the sinful allure of compromised knowledge and the colonial archive. (위험한 지식의 유혹에 빠져) Falling for the temptation of dangerous knowledge (네 파라다이스는 독이 묻어있어) (Your paradise is tainted with poison) This muse of mine, she wears a scholar's cloak Her every whisper is a learned smoke I know this sin, but I can't turn away For this cursed truth, I'll willingly pay It’s my Blood, Sweat, and Theory for you This epistemophilic desire, so true A sinful pleasure, an intellectual high To drink the truth, though I know it’s a lie For you, for you, for you It’s my Blood, Sweat and Theory for you! (3x) It’s my Blood, Sweat, and Theory for you This epistemophilic desire, so true A sinful pleasure, an intellectual high To drink the truth, though I know it’s a lie For you, for you, for you (2x) He shows me Pusa, reconfigured as Isis A violent amalgam, your central thesis And like Aladdin, a tale you stole and told A story of the so called Orient you bought and sold And I’m complicit, caught in your design Because this broken narrative feels like mine 이 달콤한 독은 나를 무너트려 This sweet poison breaks me down 네가 준 상처는 이론이 되었어 The wounds you gave have become theory This muse of mine, she wears a scholar's cloak Her every whisper is a learned smoke It’s my Blood, Sweat, and Theory for you This epistemophilic desire, so true A sinful pleasure, an intellectual high To drink the truth, though I know it’s a lie For you, for you, for you Icarus flying far too close to the sun Loving the system that must be undone They'll pick a chosen few, a decolonial star To keep the rest of us outside the bar This is the first sin/descent(?) the original fall Loving the monster that has consumed us all 이건 원죄야, 사랑의 죄 This is original sin, the crime of love 이건 선별이야, 계층의 창조 This is selection, the creation of a class For you (repeated) https://mandymerzaban.com/Institutional-poetics Wed, 29 Jan 2025 19:25:35 +0000 Mandy Merzaban https://mandymerzaban.com/Institutional-poetics / INSTITUTIONAL POETICS: A Lexicon of Counter-Productivity A multi-modal site responsive research project investigating institutional life through the body. Developed during a Brooks International Fellowship at Tate Britain, this ongoing practice moves between conversation, photography, and poetry to attend to what typically fades from view in the foreground of museum display and work. Building trust with staff, personal encounters and accounts were anonymised and abstracted into poetry validating experience while reframing artistic practice as a gesture of care. Invisible labour as contiguous to art. 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data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/6fb12834f36cdfcb10c974d365d4922f2a818540cb46103b6fc1513834810e55/The-Queen-02.JPG" data-mid="225730674" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/6fb12834f36cdfcb10c974d365d4922f2a818540cb46103b6fc1513834810e55/The-Queen-02.JPG" /> https://mandymerzaban.com/Lecture-Performance Sat, 13 May 2023 12:34:18 +0000 Mandy Merzaban https://mandymerzaban.com/Lecture-Performance / INSTITUTIONAL POETICS (lecture-performance) Institutional poetics: a lexicon in counter-productivity is a meditation on institutional life and the mechanics of dissociation. Through fragments of writing, listicle poems, and the story of imaginary curator Sherry Salam, this performance explores what vibrates, fades and wounds between the appearance and experience of organisations. Developed after a Brooks International Fellowship at Tate Britain, it weaves personal anecdote and critical theory into an 'Institutional Life Glossary': invented words naming subtle, shared tensions and solidarities in the workplace. The performance transmits private experience into shared language, positioning artistic practice as a form of counter-institutional care. For more information please click here. Presentation transcript: Before I begin, if there’s anything throughout the presentation that resonates with an experience that you’ve had, or you have an impression or sensation, I invite you to take note and hold onto it until the end for when we have drinks… And rather than having an ‘intellectual’ Q&amp;A, I’d like to open the space for anyone who would like to share an insight and allow that to shape a wider or smaller discussion. 1. Intro I’m going to share a bit about my evolving practice that includes art, research and poetry, over the last few years. However a lot of the knowledge that appears in these practices has been generated over the last 15 years.&nbsp;A lot of the projects I’ll share are in progress, and they include fragments of writing, visual material and notes.&nbsp;I’m also going to try to practise speaking a bit more slowly, to allow room for pause, space and reflection. This moment of sharing is, in a way, the first time I’ve actually talked about my own work as someone not affiliated with an institution, or with playing a role within one, such as that of a curator, a fellow or a student. I’ve also tried to reflect on the kind of work that I’ve been doing through the premise of the Revision program, which is to consider the infrastructures within which we work, more critically. For the better part of my professional life, I’ve worked as a curator. And after a rather difficult and disillusioning break from that role, I became much more alert to and aware of the power that hierarchical workplace infrastructures have on a couple of things, One, diminishing our self-worth and two, in being able to use the language of equity to create an image of equity. 2. Appearance vs Experience I came to a more lived rather than theoretical realisation that there is a distance between the experience and appearance of an organisation. And how we can often identify and try and treat the symptoms of problems rather than the causes of them. So much is contained in this distance between experiences and appearances that is rendered irrelevant and invisible that, I think, requires the attention and care of artistic thinking. Most importantly there are bodies that live and work within this distance. Especially within the last few years, I’ve entered into a sense of uncertainty and in-betweenness. Particularly around rethinking how I’d like to exist within the art sector, let alone survive sustainably in it.&nbsp;I’m trying, in at least one part of my life to be an artist, or research artist, artist researcher or whatever combination of words I eventually land on.&nbsp;And this to some extent feels exposing because it’s the most uncertain kind of role I have ever known. I’ve really only ever worked within organisational settings and workplaces. And the workplace is an environment that both overtly and subtly shapes you&nbsp;and it can shape our identity and sense of purpose. It’s where we can spend much of our life time, for one.&nbsp;And especially in the art sector, there is this underlying assumption that you have a passion for what you do, or at least that what you do, aligns with some sort of conviction or special interest that you have. In some cases that conviction or special interest may have been shaped by the infrastructure you end up in or at least want to end up in, like a museum, university, or gallery for instance.&nbsp;For a long time my sense of self has been tied to the aura of an institution’s self image and the uncomfortable, yet comfortable safety of an office workplace and a job title. 3. Workplace muscle memory As a result, it may seem obvious to say that I hold a great deal of workplace muscle memory, and this often activates like a conditioned reflex in these types of institutional environments. It can make it difficult to see these spaces with a degree of objective or emotional distance because it’s easy for the everyday violence of institutions to recede into the background. This muscle memory is something I began to take note of more closely during a fellowship at Tate last year, that I’ll get into later.&nbsp; So, some of the work I do as a researcher and artist can often feel like deep, investigative, emotional labour and some of the practices involved in this labour include very fragile and felt activities such as listening, writing, walking, drawing, and listing and through these practices, finding ways of disentangling my own intuitive knowledge from institutional knowledge. The body can be a really important tool of navigation in this case. And observing the state of institutions through the body and what the body comes up against, can help map and name what happens in a way that begins with sensational knowledge. 4. ‘Sensing Wrongs’When I use the word sensational, I mean it in the way that feminist scholar Sara Ahmed refers to it as part of living feminism through the body&nbsp;and how a body is our nearest and earliest tool for sensing wrongs - wrongs we may not have the words for yet. Or even admit we have. These senses can emerge and retreat constantly and confusingly when we are trained not to notice or trust them. And for me poetry is a way to invoke the body through language because it can more confidently and quickly, toy with the expectations we have around language. In particular, how we can often want language to be informative in particular ways.&nbsp;I can’t remember the quote exactly but I recall the poet Will Harris saying in an interview once something like ‘don’t forget a poem even though it is composed of the language of information it is not used in the language game of giving information’ (I think he’s also quoting this from someone else).&nbsp;So just to slowly ease into some of the research I did last year I’ll share a short listical poem, which is composed of bits I didn’t use in another poem, that I won’t share today, and the words themselves are drawn from a Tate contract. (I put the contract in a word frequency calculator to generate a list of words that were contained in the contract.) 5. Self-care routine Self care routine Self terms Self damage Self assurances Self bribe Self annex Self insurance Self promises Self discretion Self patent Self whatever Self research Quasi Self Public Self Applicable Self Self majeure Self comply Self charge Self model Model self 6.&nbsp; This is another, a haiku: Concerned safe bodies Grant diversity code Licence self damage Without saying too much, I just want to add that I became quite interested in the ways in which we discipline ourselves. And in this case and others I wanted to experiment with the potential of using binding contractual, legal language to say other things that are also internal, binding and private. 7. ‘It is difficult to say what is difficult’ Now I’m just gonna backtrack, for a moment, to consider the series of encounters that shifted my vantage point in the first place. A shift that made it particularly hard for me to re-enter a workplace in the same way. And by ‘in the same way’ I mean as an overly compliant and amiable worker. I went from being a curator more or less at home inside the walls of an organisation, to finding myself on the other side of the walls, feeling discardable, disoriented and eventually more interested in the walls themselves. I’m testing out a way of talking about this really difficult, draining period more abstractly through an artwork by conceptual artist, Walid Raad, that I find curiously resonates with my experience. It’s called Yet more letters to the reader and it’s from an ongoing series that, in part, observes the way the proliferation of art institutions in the Arab Gulf and beyond are codifying the history of modern Art in the Arab world. Since I still struggle to talk about the past directly, I’ve opted to do this in a dissociative way. 8. ‘Hello, Sherry Salam’ So, In the spirit of dissociation, I’ll talk about a curator named Sherry. She is an imaginary person playing a fictionalised role. Or something like that.&nbsp;One day, during Sherry’s final year working as a curator for a well known private art collection based in the Arab Gulf, she received an instant message from a colleague that contained an image of this installation. 9. Sherry Salam The installation consists of enlarged reproductions of artworks from the collection that Sherry worked for, painted on empty crates. She recognised the artists, Inji Efflatoun, Saloua Raouda Choucair, Marwan, and other names now more enveloped in the category of Arab modernism. She had met several scholars in this particular field of research&nbsp;— many American — over the years and organised dozens of exhibitions with the original versions of these reproductions. Sherry generally had a mental map of their locations globally.&nbsp;At the time, she stood behind the idea that raising the profile of artists through exhibitions of the collection across the world, namely the Global North, was part of an effort to de-center art historical canons to include marginalised artists. 10. A feeling she couldn’t quite place When she saw this installation for the first time, it felt a bit like looking into a funhouse mirror. Those mirrors in carnivals where a person’s reflection gets elongated to become wonky and out of whack. That said, she doesn’t remember the last time she’s seen one in real life.&nbsp;There was a feeling she couldn’t quite place. Little did Sherry know she would revisit this particular image a few years later after a lot of therapy. 11. Blank stares This work became a stand-in of sorts when she realised she could no longer bring herself to look at images of the original artworks anymore. They reminded her of blank stares and business as usual, and the walls people make when stakes change. Sherry eventually saw herself in this work. In a way, though it didn’t make sense, she was a curator without a body in the same way the paintings were transmuted into empty containers. She felt inside out and outside in.&nbsp;In the meridian between the collection and this work she was made into a fiction. 12. A collection staring back at her She could see her labour around this collection staring back at her as a co-conspirator in exaggeration. In the invisible space between the high profiles of a collector and a conceptual artist, she was waving her hand at herself.&nbsp;It seemed to me, and most certainly to Sherry, that one way of reading the artwork is as a commentary on what gets lost or emptied out in the&nbsp;frenetic codification of modern art of the Arab world. 13. Disembodied And if she was part of anything, it was part of an already established, well oiled machine sending works to Western institutions for validation. This was further compounded by the fact that the notoriety of a single collection can warp the ways in which a wider history of a region is framed and that it’s beholden to not only Western validation but also the power play of personalities.&nbsp;And she had to ask herself what her role was in this disembodied discombobulation that felt so real? I’m just going to leave it there… (for now) 14. Mouthful Now I’ll talk a bit about some of the research I did last year while I was a fellow at Tate’s Research and Interpretation department. And I’ll share some images and words in the background while I talk. I was there, initially, to intervene in research related to how Tate’s collection interpretation manifests attitudes and instances of racism, colonialism and white supremacy. And this was a description that in and of itself felt like a mouthful to say let alone to consider as an undertaking.&nbsp;I often found myself needing to explain the premise of my presence in various social situations using this string of words, often very awkwardly.&nbsp; (racism, colonialism and white supremacy). And this awkwardness, along with peoples’ mixed reactions which ranged from awe to confusion, also fed into a kind of self-consciousness I had around the insurmountability and perhaps absurdity of my role. Circling back to something I mentioned earlier regarding workplace muscle memory, this was something that I was reckoning with being in a very typical office workplace especially as someone who in a way didn’t need to be there. 15. Relax in Tate font It’s a bit like being in a simulated reality where you are trying to integrate but also distance yourself. You’re caught in the interplay of your body absorbing and pushing away the institutional environment.&nbsp;It was very clear from the beginning that I wouldn’t be able to take this on as a purely intellectual exercise, as in looking at language and pointing at problems, but rather as an access point through which to observe the living workplace that surrounds such a premise. To observe in real time, the ways in which inclusion and exclusion play out in workplace situations, such as meetings, spaces and correspondences. A workplace that is predominantly white, or white-led, within a corporate, protective, and hierarchical infrastructure. One of the key challenges with interpretation is that it sits at the intersection of so many different kinds of forces and systems. 16. Environmental conditions Some of these may include the curatorial, the art historical, the museum guideline, the public, the attitudes of different levels of governance and patronage, and the aura of an institution.&nbsp;Given this set of parameters and scope of the research question, there were obvious limits to what would and would not be possible. It actually seemed more compelling to,&nbsp;rather than look at interpretation, or the archive or the collection, to focus on these governing forces. The power dynamics that play out in the mundane day-to-day. These less tangible aspects of the institution that are not necessarily considered part of the official, prized resources of the institution –such as the collection or the archive – can thus easily recede into the background. However, it is these environmental conditions that indicate the degree of anti-racist consciousness an organisation actually has.&nbsp;There is also, always a risk, being a temporary person of colour brought into any institution in any role, that this appears as evidence that an institution is transforming. 17. Peculiar habits of white heteropatriarchy I refer briefly here to an excerpt from feminist scholar Sara Ahmed’s living a life feminist life, where she references the role women of colour often inadvertently have within predominantly white spaces and in this case the word ‘university’ could be interchangeable with museum or another kind of organisation. “I would claim that women of colour are already ethnographers of universities; we are participating, yes, but we are also observing often because we are assumed not to belong or reside in the places we end up … sharing observations about “the natives” within universities - the rather peculiar habits of white heteropatriarchy” &nbsp; 18. See in Tate font The only thing I really could offer honestly was my presence as a witness and as an interlocutor to listen, process and reflect back the difficult situations and experiences that were generously shared and entrusted to me. The experiences we have within the workplace are deeply personal and there is an entangled relationship between the institutional and the personal. Some of the people I interacted with held some role or relation to an activity considered anti-racist and much of the time this was not necessarily part of their official job description. And what is considered an anti-racist practice differs from person to person, particularly depending on their actual lived experience with racism. 19. Dream and Listen in Tate font Sometimes anti-racism could mean holding a discussion group in tandem with a busy production schedule, to read material by anti-racist scholars&nbsp;but then feeling the pressure as the person of colour in the room to have the answers.&nbsp;It could mean a person acknowledging their white privilege.It could mean being apologetic or sympathetic and using the language of sympathy, mixed with using the word empathy, as a way to preface conversations. 20. Rare moments of feeling seen It could mean a conviction to confront a colonial past, but then in practice, this conviction amounts to putting a few vague words, or a series of awkwardly abrupt ones on a label.Or my favourite, it could be locking eyes with a colleague in a meeting to acknowledge the absurdity of what someone said and finding rare moments of feeling seen. Overall there are preconditioned structures and attitudes that surround these different acts, and these preconditions reflect a lack of depth or lived understanding of what it means to feel an anti-racist consciousness in the body. 21. “Simply put, how equality is done reproduces inequalities” This absence of feeling lies in the shadow of intellectual understanding. It’s the absence that, when push comes to shove in a meeting, privilege and keeping a particular form of bureaucratic peace, prevails. ‘We can become a problem when we describe a problem’ (Living a Feminist Life, 39). The absence is inevitably a deeply felt understanding that is required to recognise, in a living, ongoing, never ending way, how to observe and act from an anti-racist consciousness. A lot of the time an anti-racist attitude can be reduced to language. There is a time and a place and a form that language can take. 22. White Fragility / White Allyship This lived consciousness, for me, is a bit beyond just white allyship. It’s a subject position that is not generated out of the fear of getting it wrong. An allyship that is not guarded, performative or switches on and off.&nbsp;There is a deeply felt difference between an intellectual versus lived understanding of racism, along with other injustices, and having the fluency and currency of posturing an intellectual understanding of anti-racism can often impersonate a lived one.&nbsp;And underlying everything is the precariousness of working, being underpaid and the excess of energy that is required to just do the job description. A job description that is rarely just the job description.&nbsp;Anti-racist learning, for the most part, is extra, it’s added on, or it’s in a constant state of deferral and referral rather than integration. 23. Time Sensitive / Sensitive Time For example the frequency and prolific nature of meetings and the time taken up by them can also perpetuate a culture of cyclical conversations about the need for anti-racist reform. This leaves little room for the reflection, practical translation and the actioning of ideas and ultimately little room for the emotional integration that pervades all of this.&nbsp;The overlap between everything being time sensitive and having time for sensitivity can ultimately leave no time at all. It needs to be deeply felt to click into a kind of cognisance. A cognisance that isn’t about arriving at a mythical anti racist destination, like an action plan, or a policy in writing or the right string of words in a seminar. 24. Teleology I’ll just refer briefly to this brilliant report by artist Jack Ky Tan, which if you haven’t looked at you should, and it traces both, poetically and analytically, the different forces that shape the development of anti racist organisational cultures in London’s arts sector.&nbsp;The observations are drawn from a series of knowledge exchange workshops. One of these identified forces is Teleology.&nbsp;‘The belief that things can (and often should) be explained and justified by their ends or ultimate purpose or goal’&nbsp;This is difficult to apply to developing an anti-racist consciousness because there is truly “no moment at which an institution can say 'job done'… there is no utopia of anti-racism where "at the end of [a project or training] we’re suddenly not a racist organisation anymore.” So if there is no fixed goal, the point is for changes to be shaped by an ongoingness and willingness and ultimately, sacrifices and concessions of power and structure. This is obviously easier said than done when a pyramid is the kind of structure you’re working with and within and where production schedules are fixed and frequent and expected and demanded at so many levels. Funding often hinges on the constant perpetuation of doing. It hinges on productivity and developing an anti-racist consciousness requires a level of counter-productivity. It puts pressure on the way time is organised. 25. Counter-productivity Anti racism as counter-productive. Or something like that.&nbsp;And one of the main issues with anti-racist rhetoric in any sector, let alone the art sector, is intellectual bypassing.&nbsp;This is because language can also be an exit sign. A way out of doing “the work.”&nbsp;For instance, there’s a difficulty in expecting change in an institution when there is a big gap between the theorisation and wording of the change and what the structure actually permits. It’s really hard to hold something like an anti-racist policy or diversity policy as an institutionally developed thing while still believing in the infrastructure of an institution. This is also limited by our own institutionalised minds to envision possibilities. 26. ‘A version of myself’ This lack of integration not only creates tension and disillusionment, but also the necessity to have safe spaces where people of colour can escape white supremacy culture. One interlocutor had mentioned that white spaces can often elicit a sense that you witness playing yourself as a role rather than being yourself. I would notice this viscerally. Oftentimes I would have an indescribable sigh of relief that I would feel in a group with other POCs where I would realise, to some extent, I wasn’t playing a version of myself. Though there are so many moments and observations&nbsp;that shape the collective intuition of this research into institutions it takes time to sit and bring them into any kind of form. Sometimes that form is just a sigh. 27. Sigh One of the things that I did quite a bit at the beginning was keep a private journal of the different kinds of encounters, discussions and situations that arose. But over time I started to pay more attention to what certain situations felt like and that also meant forming relationships that could just be about sharing, solidarity and trust building - about feeling rather than writing.&nbsp;At some points, writing reflections and prose began to feel too heavy for the delicate moments that don’t necessarily have long explanations. 28. Institutional Life GlossaryThis slide shows some of the ways in which I began to log the types of situations I and others would experience, by making words.&nbsp;Here I have some words that refer to specific institutional situations and environments. This exercise in word making isn't necessarily about coining terms to define in any definitive, or textbook kind of way but to create pointers that could resonate without further explanation. It’s a way of referring to things, but not too specifically, and keeping things open ended.&nbsp;There is something about seeing them in a list without the burden of saying things in a long-form explanatory way.&nbsp;Listing also allows us to see and compare things that are close together that may not otherwise be together, to see patterns and instances. 29. Confusion, Care, and Violence Other times, I would identify words that felt commonly occurring for me like&nbsp;language, confusion, care and violence.&nbsp;In order to make them more proximate to the experiences that were either shared with me or that I felt first hand, I began to pair these words with different situational qualities. Another reason why I started making words was to also find a way of logging particular moments that might otherwise fade from my field of view. So much can get lost on the cutting room floor, so to speak, when you don’t quite know yet what something means or how a moment has affected you. As much as language can be an exit sign, the practice of making new language that is generated out of a kind of commoning or sharing to name problems that may otherwise fade from view, can be a lot like planting seeds, which is something that I also like to do outside of this work. I have a whole other practice that is just about watching and drawing things that grow which has not yet found a way into my professional life. So I was thinking of concluding the seminar by taking some time for us to read these words, or ones that resonate or perhaps imagine other ones that relate to considerations and observations that you may have. https://mandymerzaban.com/An-Unknown-Lover-s-Discourse-1 Mon, 07 Jan 2019 16:18:37 +0000 Mandy Merzaban https://mandymerzaban.com/An-Unknown-Lover-s-Discourse-1 / AN UNKNOWN LOVER’S DISCOURSE (2011, 2013-)&nbsp; <img width="5120" height="2880" width_o="5120" height_o="2880" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/cb9e5923d9c2722dcb31e4b31ec9c15a2b3193646c7051a1cda1acb2b73b54d1/Browser_Windows_Curtain.png" data-mid="32313702" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/cb9e5923d9c2722dcb31e4b31ec9c15a2b3193646c7051a1cda1acb2b73b54d1/Browser_Windows_Curtain.png" /> <img width="2000" height="1250" width_o="2000" height_o="1250" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/0972f7ecbf3b245641b939224f3b3b5b7ec663270d68a896fc12ab81f97aa368/Screen-Shot_Amal-and-Lisa-awoken.png" data-mid="32322407" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/0972f7ecbf3b245641b939224f3b3b5b7ec663270d68a896fc12ab81f97aa368/Screen-Shot_Amal-and-Lisa-awoken.png" /> <img width="2864" height="1619" width_o="2864" height_o="1619" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/6d64fe1ea2031fec8c1b02edc7216fcded5f4432f8d4b27b13c8ce44bd6795c9/Screen-Shot-2016-01-12-at-8.44.25-PM-copy.png" data-mid="32313779" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/6d64fe1ea2031fec8c1b02edc7216fcded5f4432f8d4b27b13c8ce44bd6795c9/Screen-Shot-2016-01-12-at-8.44.25-PM-copy.png" /> • • • ‘“To you who never knew me”’&nbsp; An Unknown Lover’s Discourse is a research art project first culminated as a Masters dissertation in Cultural Translation in 2015. The title is a marriage of two core texts central to the project, A Lover’s Discourse (1978) by French philosopher Roland Barthes and the 1922 novella Letter from an Unknown Woman by Austrian author Stefan Zweig about an unrequited love story set in turn of the century Vienna. Beginning with a recollection of an encounter in 2011 with a 1962 Egyptian film on Dubai satellite television, the project unfolded a couple of years later during my Masters programme through a series of experiments with receptive bilingual translation and my vague memory of this viewing. The film, Resala Men Emraa Majhoua (Letter from an Unknown Woman), is an adaptation Zweig’s novella and is a musical film starring Lebanese singer and oud player Farid Al Atrache and Loubna Abdel Aziz, directed by Salah Abu Seif. Set in 1950s Cairo, this film is one of a few adaptations of Zweig’s story at different points in time in different languages that include a Hollywood film in 1948, a French film in 2001 and a Chinese film in 2004. The initial research centred on my own encounters with these stories, ways of perceiving and interpreting these iterations across different electronic platforms, languages through the philosphical lens of Barthes’ A Lover’s Discourse with&nbsp;ethnomusicologist Ali Jihad Racy’s writing on the experience of tarab, or “enchantment” which describes improvisation in vocal and instrumental approaches in music, particularly influential in the musical history Arab region. / The story Bracketed by short, italicised, omniscient prose, the central body of Zweig’s story comprises an unsigned letter by a woman to her lifelong unrequited lover, R., after her death. Written in a voice meant to echo a frantic, disquieted woman in love, the text lays to bare a depiction of female subjectivity. The unknown woman is effaced by her unbridled, masochistically silent fascination with the spirited life of a man of means, influence, genius and insatiable desire. Acting as a kind of externalised form of male introspection, the woman’s letter offers a vantage point for the man to see himself. Also, written by a male author, the story acts as a simulacrum of the female subject. This patriarchal redundancy places the man, both the author and beloved, as the creator and primary subject of a woman’s voice and consciousness. The woman is perpetually unknown, interchangeable with other lovers and only exists in the economy of men’s words. • • • https://mandymerzaban.com/Drained-words-and-Floating-Ink Tue, 22 Jan 2019 15:13:55 +0000 Mandy Merzaban https://mandymerzaban.com/Drained-words-and-Floating-Ink + WAVEFORM,&nbsp;Drained words &amp; Floating ink&nbsp; <img width="2880" height="1800" width_o="2880" height_o="1800" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/8c5f4c842fa47416dec84d9a64c6e476a024bd5af8e709d65911a19368cc01c4/Screen-Shot-2018-07-27-at-3.31.54-PM.png" data-mid="34203153" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/8c5f4c842fa47416dec84d9a64c6e476a024bd5af8e709d65911a19368cc01c4/Screen-Shot-2018-07-27-at-3.31.54-PM.png" />An&nbsp;Unknown Lover’s Discourse: Waveform I, 2018. Video still. 40:47 min.&nbsp; During a two-month artist residency at Alserkal Avenue in Dubai I revisited my 2015 thesis to develop the first iteration of An Unknown Lover’s Discourse and its presence as a research art project. The result was an exhibition of three components: works on paper, a video and a live audio performance conducted as a disembodied narrating voice in the exhibition space. Scenes from the English and Arabic iterations of the Letter from an Unknown Woman films play behind a window that converts the image into a waveform. Acheived in the video editing software Final Cut, the video is a screen recording of this “waveform” vector in the application measuring the luminosity of the moving image in real time and its graphical representation. The movements on the waveform graph capture the slight, gestural movements of the characters with minute accuracy. The result is a viewing of the films through their luminosity and given the intensity of the process, the waveform window is slightly delayed creating a spectral imprint of what is happening behind it. &nbsp; ︎ Full video <img width="1643" height="1311" width_o="1643" height_o="1311" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/ee5dfd7be5fe3bd2195b5008ccac5f4ad11cc3427246e439626dc4c0423d3c57/4Y0A2985.jpg" data-mid="33573039" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/ee5dfd7be5fe3bd2195b5008ccac5f4ad11cc3427246e439626dc4c0423d3c57/4Y0A2985.jpg" /> <img width="1831" height="1456" width_o="1831" height_o="1456" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/36711f25b3c78c0d06fb8db263afcea7a29b7e4b1f8a3cd70998871789368b72/4Y0A2980.jpg" data-mid="33572919" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/36711f25b3c78c0d06fb8db263afcea7a29b7e4b1f8a3cd70998871789368b72/4Y0A2980.jpg" /> <img width="2080" height="1639" width_o="2080" height_o="1639" 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height="1458" width_o="1841" height_o="1458" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/2b9db70b8ddaedd30294e44d333012af9c21a1ea028c9d1deb246f0171be4dcc/4Y0A2972.jpg" data-mid="33572954" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/2b9db70b8ddaedd30294e44d333012af9c21a1ea028c9d1deb246f0171be4dcc/4Y0A2972.jpg" /> Floating ink, 2018, Water monoprint, suminagashi ink on paper. <img width="2541" height="3297" width_o="2541" height_o="3297" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/c2a6aed784a21006d1c16241b0dfc56153ab6cb3cfc4f6ab10eb71d0a8042d1e/4Y0A2991.jpg" data-mid="33574682" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/c2a6aed784a21006d1c16241b0dfc56153ab6cb3cfc4f6ab10eb71d0a8042d1e/4Y0A2991.jpg" /> <img width="2541" height="3297" width_o="2541" height_o="3297" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/8ba70cc17b0f2e2b6ee6eafdae7d2978dbf245d71202db468bae68cf8879cac5/4Y0A2995.jpg" data-mid="33574683" border="0" 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In an attempt to vent my own frustration with Zweig’s androcentric text imitating a woman’s frantic voice and subjectivity, these two works on paper operate in tandem as a quietly violent gesture. In Stefan Zweig’s Letter from an Unknown Woman, drained, the decompression of the words from pages of the translated novella are emptied of their ink but remain as craters of a permanent imprint. While in Floating Ink, the extracted ink is symbolically released into a body of water to become a sumingashi monoprint, freed of a lingusitic form of language to become something more liminal, spontaneous and ephemeral that cannot be repeated verbatim. • • • Related material: _&nbsp;Review: Sullivan, Isaac. Lives of Text, Canvas Nov/Dec, 2018